Welcome to my dumping-ground

I would marked the below post as one of the most 'memorable' period of moi time. Perhaps more so than my wedding.

I very much liked to share with my dear friends out there how traumatic it had been for me.

I am pregnant and in my 9th week. Mathematically, obviously its not made in Korea(honeymoon).
For the record, I conceived in October. (Proud to say, My marriage is not a shotgun!)

Early november, I had been feeling sickly. I naturally assumed its my sinus acting just like what I had occasionally.
The coughing and vomitting and lethargic. Little did I suspected that I could be pregnant.
When I missed my menses 2 weeks later, I knew…
When I was few days late, but I tot maybe the medicine I took for my sinus causes the delay.
I brought myself a test kit and "Ka Bomb", it’s the scariest parellel line I have ever since in my almost 25 short years.
I told myself, "alright! Its says 99% accuracy, there is 1% error."

I told MQ to accompany me to the doctor on the pretext for my sinus.
I drop the blast when I entered the consultation room and my hubby tot I was kidding!! ~,~"
I had a ultrascan, this was how it looks like in its 5th weeks… very blur when scan into pc…
A tiny spot!

To cut the story short, I never wanted a kid now. I make him promised that we will have one 5 years later.
That was the plan. I was determined to abort it. I call KK for appointment.
I couldn't lived with what I was going to do, I cried every moment. I was such a let-down to both families and hubby.
I buried myself deeper. Ignoring and refusing to see the pain that my hubby suffered silently and the worries he had for me.
Relying selfishly on his strength to get me thru my waking hours.
My colleague who I confided to, eventually encouraged me to keep the baby.
One week later, I told mq 'If our friends can have kids with their earnings and condition, We can do it with ours!" That was the 1st smile I seen on him since our doctor visit.
I canceled the appointment with KK.

What I wanted to share is that I married a really wonderful guy. ( nope, not trying to haolian...i suffered before i met MQ, remember?!!)
My hubby may not be wealthy or super good-looking.
But he certainly ensure my happiness is his 1st priority.

Dear friends, its easy to find one being nice to you, difficult for one to sync with you.
Its rare for one to offer his whole to you.

I found mine.

I hope you find yours too..