Welcome to my dumping-ground

Ooh. My team organizes a sandwich lunch today. Everyone contribute an item, I bought ham, and there are curry potato, egg mayo, salad, tuna and cocktail. Very satiated right now (pat on the tummy =p).

Today is XP’s birthday. Sad to say, I ‘gave up’ on her some years back.
I think I blog about some thing like ‘giving up’ on friends.
Today, I message her happy birthday, as usual she din acknowledge the message.
Well, she is not a bad friend, just that she is the way she is ‘bei dong’.
(I suddenly cant remember the English word for ‘bei dong’).
The last time I message her was when am still in MBB, and then I just stop.
Was msn-ing eddie and we were talking about time management.
Its like b4 I got attached, I balance my life among family, friends and of course, time for myself.
So I don expect my friends to be available when I ask them out.
But I appreciate if they can re-arrange THEIR time, so they can slot me in, even for coffee, I be happy.

So towards XP or even ‘friends’ like XM, DL, S, these are friends that I no longer contact.
But WERE my close friends ONCE.
They are nice pple like I said, but then sometimes I feel like there’s no more I can give.
That’s when I cut myself off from them.
Sad to say, perhaps it din make any difference to them.
Im not mocking myself, sometimes some friends are best to stay in the past.
Perhaps I am one to them.

I treat my friendship like my love life.
Any relation between 2 person needs both side to nurture, I saw not the need to continue in a relation when I see a dead end.
I’m not being practical, just realistic. (yah, I know it’s a fine line betw this two)
Why would I want to stuff my face up some one else cold arse???
Why would I want to get upset when they don’t even realize what they have done?

So….

back to work!!
=p